About the song 

 

This is the song I wrote for my beloved dog, Bear, a year after his untimely and tragic death. This horrific accident completely destroyed me for years. He was my sweet boy, my deepest love, we were never apart since I had him at five weeks old, all the way until the day he died just days before his 5th birthday.

 

At the time I wrote this song, I had not yet fully grieved or dealt with the guilt… I accepted that he was gone, but I was still in denial and could not accept the way that he died. I was suffering and feeling lost…  

 

It’s about my refuge into sound, it's about our relationship. It’s also about my faith that frequency and love are the fabric of all existence… it’s a mix between a cry of desperation and a strong choice to believe in love’s inability to perish… no matter what. 

 

It’s a prayer… with the power of frequencies combined with the power of love,  that this magic may resonate all the way to his unique essence… In hopes that it could guide him on his journey, and equally, be a power that I can harness as I continue mine here on Earth. I hoped that he could hear it and it would keep us connected through the realms. 

 

I never imagined this would be the song I would release first... 

 

A few months before my debut in the recording studio, I was sick. There was a profound imbalance in my body and I was experiencing many symptoms, but doctors couldn’t find anything wrong with me. 

 

I went to a TCM, who realized that all my symptoms were being caused by an unprocessed trauma, and that I had an overload of grief and shame stuck in my body. It was bringing me on the verge of a serious illness. A few acupuncture needles later I was launched into facing the pain and horror of what happened six years earlier with Bear’s death. 

 

Over a two month period, I finally dealt with the grief, released the shame and guilt… accepted what happened, and opened up my heart to feel love once again. The more I lived this process, the more my health bounced back. I found peace at last, and I could look at his photos with a smile once again. 

 

The song was recorded on September 21st, the equinox. It was fitting to begin the recording of my album by closing this process and honoring the lessons and the love reclaimed by recording this song. It was a beautiful ceremony, his spirit was with us in the studio that day. I felt myself again for the first time in years. Truly, love never dies. 

 

The harmonics in this song symbolize the way all the planets, suns, stars and realms resonate in harmony… in connection with one another… my final sending off of my Bear dancing among them. 

 

And so it is. May it be helpful to others.

- Viv Kalo
 

Credits 

 

Song written by: Vivian Kaloxilos (Viv Kalo)
Performed by: Viv Kalo
Recorded & Produced by: Emma Anders at Jamhouse Studio
Mixed by: Alexy Guérer
Mastered by: Sonny Black